Monday, February 16, 2009


When faced with the tedium and longevity of a chronic illness, disability, or disorder, life can go on in a painful condition for such a long time that one doesn't always stop to recognize and give thanks for a good day when it comes.

After many months of headaches which can immobilize me and send me to bed for days at a time... the discomfort of side effects from prescription medications, and the fatigue and chronic neuralgia associated with other conditions, I awoke three mornings last week feeling like a different person.

To be honest, it felt unusual. I was amazed. My head didn't throb. There was no "buzz-ing" sound in my head, my pain level was manageable, and the internal chills weren't there, leaving me feeling almost "normal". I walked in the front door at work and told the first person I saw that I felt good. It had been a while since I had been able to do that, and I enjoyed it.
(There was no explanation. I had no particular changes in medications, diet, or lifestyle. This was a gift of "wellness"... "out of the blue"... straight from the Lord, the "giver of life".)

On top of my body feeling well, my mind was clear, focused, and I felt energized. Within those three days, I was able to complete more work than I had been able to accomplish in the previous month. I felt so good that I went from task to task. I did several monthly jobs ahead of time, plus catching up on all the little things that had slipped by me. Maybe I did a bit too much.

**Alas, by the time Friday arrived, the pain was back... the fatigue had returned, and the focus was gone... but I had been gifted with three perfect days ... the best I had in a long time. What a blessing! I had intended to blog during those days and thank the Lord for them ... but I didn't.
**So now... the purpose of this blog is to praise God that He is with me EVERY DAY. He truly blessed me with three days of ease, strength, focus, and comfort. They were very fruitful days.
I felt accomplished because of my amount of work done during that time... but I also desire to praise God because He is with me all the other days. He is with me on the days when I can't make it out of bed. He is with me when I am forced to take the "heavy duty"meds and sleep for several days at a time.

He gives me the strength that enables me to crawl out of bed, go to work, and do as much as I can... even when I am weak and in pain. God is faithful. He has proven himself faithful time and again... day after day... year after year... and so my faith grows.

**The Lord never promised us a problem-free or pain-free life... but He promised that He would always be with us.
**He has promised to send us a comforter, the Holy Spirit, Who comes along side us to comfort, lead, guide, and teach us.
**The Lord promised to strengthen us when we are weak. All we have to do is turn to Him in our weakness and find strength in Him.
**It helps me to remember that He does indeed have a plan for me. Even if I can't see how the days of my life fit in with His "big plan", I have put my trust completely in Him. I know that He has my best interest at heart... NO MATTER WHAT... as He has with All His Children. Thus... I can safely put myself in His hands, confident of His love, grace, and mercy.

"I CAN do ALL THINGS through Jesus Christ who strengths me."

"Let everything that has breath praise the Lord... for He is greatly to be praised."

I praise Him for the Good days... and I praise Him for the "less good"ones.... because He walks me through each day, and never leaves me to struggle through in my own strength. He uses the more difficult days to draw me closer to Him, and to teach me to trust Him more.

Thank you, Lord Jesus!


Special K said...

Praising HIM with you!!!

That's awesome...Mary! What a wonderful blessing!! Thanks so much for sharing!!

He And Me + 3 said...

That was wonderful...praying that you have more days like those.

Sheryl said...

So glad you had 3 great days! I do understand. Amazing what we take for granted. I am going back to read more of your posts and get to know you even better.

Praying for more "good" days.

God's Girl said...

I too have a chronic illness. God is truly faithful in the days of feeling good and in the days of spending hours in bed.

Thanks you so much for sharing.

Bless you sweet woman of God.


Sheryl said...

I was just looking through the "followers" on my blog and wanted to come over and say hi. I realize now that you have not blogged in awhile. However, I needed to read these words again today. I get so frustrated by my illness. To the point of actually yelling out loud to the Lord today about it. It's so hard for me to just be grateful for the "normal" days - I want them all to be "normal" again.

Hoping you are okay and that you're just takinga break from writing.